The Neverending Mothers Guilt

It happens, every single time I go out and buy myself I have the neverending mothers guilt thing happen. Its like lightening...buy a new pair of shoes.."oh the girls need this..I shouldn't have bought those shoes and bought them this instead".  I feel its the lingering effects of the supermom periods of my life that I went through after having both my kids.

It never fails that after I do/get/buy something I have a built of guilt and end up buying something for them or making it up to them in some weird insane way. For instance I am insane need of sweaters, I hate being cold so during the winters I try to bundle up. I went to buy some sweaters and also bought the girls things. Why? Why? Why?

I feel that the guilt isn't just in my head, the girls do it to me on occassions when I can't fight them. Can't raise my head because I am so sick..."But mom you promised.." yes please add some guilt to the nausea please.

The bright side is this: when I get old, I can totally daughter guilt them.

2011

It's 2011: the start of a new year, new blog and new goals. Last year was rough with starting school and going through spring, summer and fall with no break. This year it won't be as stressful.

My one word for 2011: Patience. I feel I have lost it for everything and everyone in my life, including myself.

My goals for 2011: Do the 30 Day Shred, Get state licensed for the CNA, get good grades in school, organize everything, clean out the clutter, write more/journal more (thats why I started the blog), take more photos and scrap more pages, drink more water and taking my vitamens. reading 50 books

Bad Habits I am breaking for 2011: picking at my nails, grazing, drinking a lot of soda

Welcome to 2011. Happy New Year